Thursday, September 23, 2004
Hello to one and all.
Exams coming in a wk time.
Haf been studying a lot these days.
I don't wanna retain.
Neither do I wanna get into a bad class.
I wanna go into the same class as clique.
Haix.
I don't know if it wld come true.
Problems aft problems.
One by one coming in.
Not slow.
But really fast.
Haix.
I hafta settle everything on my own.
Will yoo ever understand?
Yoo wun.
Yoo'll nvr.
Nvr will yoo.
I live my life without a meaning.
*o9 haben been coming online.
Hmm.
I knew she wld read my blog.
Hahaha.
That sillyyyyyyyy.
miss a truck lorry lots.
Haben been talking to her aft my phone confiscated.
Thinks she's pissed with me lahh.
Oh wells.
Nvm.
Shall wait for her to feel better.
Wells. Got lotsa to do.
Shall not update anymore.
Shall end this with few msges.
Haix.
To you-know-who-you-are-i-don't-wanna-mention,
Haix.
I know I disappoint yoo in some ways.
But, before saying that.
Ever thot I felt?
Ever say a 'thankew' whenever I offer to help?
Ever console me when I need someone?
Be the one who hug me so tight and nv let go,
Let me cry on ure shoulders?
No, never did u?
yoo didn't.
Never ever stepped into my shoes and think.
My parents.
My family.
I told everything.
I trusted yoo so much.
Sometimes, somethings.
I know yoo told to ppl that I don't expect u to tell.
I don't wanna mention who.
You know it Urself.
Now u realized that its silly abt that letter.
Wells, I got nth to say.
I had always look upon yoo like a role model.
Now what.
Im disappointed.
Really. Haix.
Nothing much I can do to change now.
Tk care. Studyy hardd./ (:
To *o9,
Hopefully yoo'll be able to read this bahs.
My phone kena confiscated le.
Sorry.
Cant msg u anymore.
Wonder if u did receive my sms todaye.
Im sorry.
Hopefully I'll see yoo arnd yaaa?
Miss yoo loads.
tk lotsa care ok?
Like what u said.
got fate then will meet de.
((:
will try to msg u if Im goin over to hlm ya?
Hope both yoo and her are doing fine.
Lemme know okie?
Studyy hardd ok?
lluurrvveeyyeeww.
to *my babyy,
I know I cant be a really perfect gf.
Im trying. really.
Althou yoo cant see.
But its rreallyy true!
Trust me ok?
Im not leaving.
Jus thinking of what some ppl told me todaye.
In a really terrible mood.
Im sorry.
Im always venting them on yoo.
I feel so bad Everytime.
Haix.
I really hope we'll get better.
And im sure we'll get plentyy much better ryte?
We'll be like that old couple on the streets,
80+ le, still so en ai, still holding hands yess?
did I tell yoo I can't live without ure love?
guess I didn't.
now i'm telling yoo.
Im totally nothing without yoo.
I'll be totally lostt.
Don't leave me again.
I'll love yoo till my very last breath.
wells, tk lotsa care kayy?
dont be be the second you-know-who-im-talkin-abt.
better bathe!
hahaha.
alrightyyy.
i'll cyaa soon alrighttt?
missing yoo alrdy!
hahahaha.
studyy hardd.
we're gonna strive for hp and money!
i love u baby. x)
-baby can't yoo see that i need yoo.
; stick with you
Monday, September 20, 2004
Hello.
Im so tired of this life.
Really tired alrdy.
Jus hope time will stop here.
I wanna end this life.
Haix.
Problems are starting to occur.
I really don't know what's gonna happen next.
And I know I wont want it to happen that way.
I caused her tears and pain.
If she chose to leave, I wont beg her to stay anymore.
Althou I need her a lot.
Im nothing without yoo.
She had to do counselloring.
Haix.
I didn't expect things to turn out this way.
I hate that feeling.
Really, I do.
Now, we quarreled a lot this few wks.
Haix.
It jus makes my heart shatter into million pieces.
Maybe for me, that is jus once.
For her, its million times before.
Well, exams are nearing alrdy.
I really don't want all this to affect me, my mood esp.
It's a great impact.
Now I cant stop thinking abt it.
I feel so dead.
I might as well be dead, ryte?
Yess, I agree.
Im gonna start studying alrdy.
I know its kinda late but yyep,
I really wanna study this time round.
I don't wanna end up in the same class as steph
(Althou I wld loved to.. its not a good sign to be..)
I don't wanna be the one crying over dead results at the end when we get back our results.
I wanna be the one crying cos of excellent results.
Like what nic told me,
"tell urself, u wanna be the one commanding, not the one being ordered. Im sure yoo can do it, girl"
Nic, I had never forget this.
Never will i.
Thanks for encouraging me all this while.
Im so worried abt baby now.
How can I not be worried.
Oh wells, she jus cried. AGAIN.
Man. I cant be there for her when she need a shoulder
I feel so dead. x(
Guess Im gonna breakdown in any moment.
Oh please, why do I hafta suffer in this.
Yess yess, life is unfair.
Regina said this.
"take things easy, one at a time. Life is never a bed of roses. We cant expect things to turn out the way we want all the time.there are always setbacks.dont let them pull yoo down. Pick Urself up and carry on with this journey, u'll find plenty things on the way."
This msg is still in my phonie.
I can never forget this.
Thanks to her.
Never regret turning to her that time.
Well, think I've been talking a lot.
Hahahah.
Shall end my entry with msges yyep.
To dearee_o9,
U ah, better study hardd okie?
Don't worry so muchie abt me alright?
*hugs
shall cyaa arnd if there's chances okie?
Lovee u!
To baby,
Don't think too much alright?
Im sure we wld be fine.
Jus fine.
Im sure daddy wont do anything to harm the both of us yyep?
Study hardd ok?
JIAYOU!
Rest while yoo can ok?
I don't wanna see pandas!
Tk lotsa care alright?
I miss yoo a lot.
Wells, im meeting yoo tmr. x)
Love yoo!
; stick with you
Friday, September 10, 2004
Hello to one and all.
Woke up at 8.30
Oldman msged me says she cant get thru my hse phone.
The vibration woke me up instead.
Hahaha.
Called back to oldman.
Talk from 8+ to 11, I guess.
Hahah.
Kinda tired now.
Slept at 2.30+ last night.
Was on the phone with oldman.
Hahaha.
We can talk a lot huh.
=)))
mum came home aft that.
Went out with mum and sis.
Went to ps.
Had pasta mania!
Went to cheenatown aft tt.
Bought long pants for sis as she needs them for performance.
Troublesome.
Walked arnd as usual.
Bought a new skirt. =))
Then home sweet home..
Daddy’s extremely busy todaye.
He didn’t call me in the morning.
((:
Good thing actually.
Maybe it means he won’t lose his job.
And ofcos, I can haf more shoppings!
The ghost opening on 16 Sep.
Wanna go catch it.
Promised beloved that I’ll go watch with her and Regina.
Also promised Mich that I wld watch it with her.
Oldman as well.
Wonder how many times am I gonna catch that show.
Well, I wun brk the promise I hope.
Maybe we all can go tgt lahh.
Hahaha.
Daddy’s home alrdy.
Gonna go niece’s place for dinner!
Pearlyn and natalyn again.
Simply love them to bitss.
Adorable kids!
Think goin club aft tt.
Weeeee~
Miss oldman alotalotalotalot.
Meetin her on mondayy!
So happyy.
Cant meet for long thou.
Gotta go home and study.
Or else I cant go out for movies.
Oh wells, dad’s out alrdy.
Gtg now!
`later.
+so happy together. (:
; stick with you
Thursday, September 09, 2004
`invade by
her old man`o4
her moron
her baby monster !
weee~
hi dearie!
here i am
i miss you so much
looking forward to meeting you soon
take gd care of yrself k
i love you loads
*muaaccks
wo.ai.ni.
hope we wun quarrel again
i enjoy every moment with you
i enjoy loving you
*//i'll love u till perpetuity
; stick with you
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
hello to one and all.
long time since i've stepped in here.
blogger don't allow me to update.
sickening.oh well, boredom.hols are here again. =x
i hate hols.
really hate them.
now they caused me more stress than before.
first, i cant meet up with oldman.
second, mum will be naggin like fuck.
third, i needa do hse work! (i hate doing them..)
forth, i can hardly please my mum to lemme out.
fifth, i hafta face my sister all the time.
okie.think that abt it.
hahaha.alrighty.
finals are coming.
needa study really hard alrdy.
talkin to oldman on the phone
now.talked on the phone with dar last nyte.
okie, i realised she's no longer quiet.
not as quiet as i think la.haha.
i used to think she's super quiet.
and me and her cant talk on the phone at all.
oh well.aft awhile, needa putt down.
cos daddy scold.hahaha.
but aft tt i took another phone to call oldman.
talk things out alrdy.
she cried again.
she's feeling under the weather.
she didnt tk good care of herself.
im so mean.
i made her tear.
im a meanie.
i didnt mean to make her tear de.
i didnt know pts is a great impact on her.
shldnt talk abt it le.haix. ):
to dearee #09,
dearee, pls tk good care of urself alrighty.
dont think so much le.
save enough money le buy ring then go jio her kae?
lemme know abt it yeahh?*hugs.
to oldman #04,
i didnt mean to make u cry.
really.
i hope what u haf promised me,
u wun break those promises.
i really need you.i cant live without you.i love you veryveryveryvery much
dont hide feeelings from me kae?
i do care abt you.
if not i wldnt be bothered with you and carol.
ure so impt to me.
never stepped out a foot of my life kae?
and pls, dont lemme worry abt you le.
remb to tk ure medi and drink lotsa water kae?
luvaye!
+ure my valentine. (:
; stick with you
Thursday, September 02, 2004
finally can update le.
been typing alot.
hahaha
to that silly old man.
bleahs=P
hmmm.now talking to dearee and old man.
plentyy fun.
dearree taught me how to diaoooo.
hahahaha.
aft sch went heartland.
met dearee there.
((:
she's cute la.
but she jus keep saying she's not.
-.-"
went with qiaolin, serene, nette.
ate yoshi.
sch had been very problematic.
everyone seems to be so busy with their prob.
one aft another.
poor baobeii.):
hope everything's settled now bahs.
alright.
shall go now.
very tired.
yawns.
+i wanna spend forever with you.
; stick with you
